What is she willing to sacrifice?
The bright Arizona sunlight permeated through the plantation
shutters, waking Gemma Lowry from a restless night, which was not unusual
considering her marriage was going down the tubes fast. Russell, her husband,
had already left for work, which was normal with having to take over the
accounting agency he’d inherited from his late father years ago.
Throwing back the fine linen sheets, Gemma walked through
her vast territorial-style home and headed to the kitchen to get a cup of
coffee before her usual morning walk. October in Arizona still meant warm
mornings. She sat at the kitchen table, glancing out over the open courtyard at
an unused chiminea that graced the corner. I don’t know why we never use
this thing. Maybe it’s because Russell has been so busy working late
these days. Hopefully, with the cooler weather coming, we can make it a point
to spend evenings out here enjoying the beautiful view of the mountains. Her
thoughts quickly turned to Russell and his behavior over the past year. Their
daughter, Hope, was off at college, and things had indeed been different, but
he seemed to lack interest in their relationship, and sex had become less and
less frequent, if not non-existent. Gemma wondered if he was having an affair
with his attractive secretary, who was young, blonde, and thin. After all, he
was an attractive, well-built man five years her junior. It’s no wonder, can
I blame him? I mean, it’s not hard to notice the few pounds I’ve put on, not to
mention my absence from the salon for some time. Did he also find me boring?
Maybe I need to get back into teaching or doing some substitute work. That’d
most likely get me back into my routine of dressing up and looking more
professional. I guess this is what early retirement does to some people.
Taking an early retirement was something Russell had brought
up a while back as the business was doing well, and he had suggested for Gemma
to retire from the classroom and do some private tutoring. After teaching for
twenty-five years at the local middle school, she’d jumped at the idea.
After her morning walk, she decided to call her longtime
fellow teaching partner, Lorna, and meet for coffee later that morning. Lorna
had retired a few years back. Gemma needed a friend to confide in regarding her
home situation.
Following a cool shower, she headed into her closet to
select a simple sundress. After trying on several, she became irritated as most
were all too snug. Looking in the bedroom mirror, she shook her head. No
more walks; I’ve got to cut back on those sweets I’m so addicted to or start
running.
She ran her hands through her dull red hair and fastened her
long locks into a ponytail. She remembered the days when her hair was a
brighter red. The Arizona sun did have its effect on redheads. She suddenly
remembered she had some other outfits hanging in Hope’s closet. Now that her
daughter had gone away to school up north, she’d transferred some of her things
into Hope’s closet.
Gemma had successfully found the perfect summer shift, but
her eyes were soon diverted to the boxes that housed mementos that were stacked
in the back of the closet. She knew they were mostly old toys that belonged to
Hope when she was a child. Feeling a strong urge, she pulled the top one out,
finding old yearbooks and some of Hope’s favorite children’s books. She opened
the second box and lying on top was an old shoebox labeled Margie,
written in fancy script-style writing.
She sat on the floor, eager to open the small, tattered box.
There was layer upon layer of tissue paper on top. She tore away at the papers,
scattering them about the floor to find Margie, the fashion doll perfectly
wrapped in silk and tied with twine. At least my daughter wanted to keep
this doll well preserved, she thought.
She gently picked up the doll that resembled so many of the
famous fashion dolls at that time, but Margie was unique with her long platinum
blonde hair and sparking green eyes. She looked as though she was ready for bed
in her white silky gown. Gemma couldn’t help but notice the doll’s brilliant
emerald eyes. I don’t think anyone has eyes this color except for a toy, she
reasoned. I remember when Hope spent endless hours playing with her and
changing her into the many outfits I’d bought. All the memories resurfaced
from a different time, a happier time. She examined Margie, closely admiring
all of the doll’s youthful features. “You are perfect, you know. You never age
nor gain weight. You have it all and don’t even know it. What I wouldn’t give
to be in your shoes.”
Gemma shook off this silly feeling and placed Margie back in
the box, wrapped snuggly in her silk cloth minus the twine, feeling she didn’t
need to be bound up again after being bound up for all these years. She closed
the lid to the box and wished her a restful sleep.
Gemma was looking forward to seeing her longtime friend
Lorna again. The Coyote Corner Coffee Shop was not overly crowded for 11 a.m.
They scored a back table and ordered their usual lattes and cranberry scones. A
month had gone by since they’d last met. Lorna looked stunning for fifty-seven
with her new short pixie cut. They’d been teaching partners for fifteen years
at Brighter Days Academy and had become great friends as well.
Talking about memories of past teaching days was usually the
main conversation, but today’s topic would take a slight twist as Gemma was
about to confide in Lorna about her rocky relationship with Russell.
Lorna listened with rapt attention and didn’t interrupt
until Gemma was finished venting. She’d offered her some sage advice and hoped
her friend would listen. Lorna had suggested picking up a few more students for
tutoring, knowing Gemma only had a fifth grader at the time. Gemma had
commented that she wasn’t motivated to get out there and advertise lately.
Lorna had also mentioned that the two of them join the local gym. Gemma nodded,
agreeing that both of these suggestions sounded promising. She reached out and
took her friend’s hand, thanking her and reminding her of what a good friend
she’s been after all these years and proceeded to ask her a heartfelt question.
“Tell me truthfully, do I look older than 52? I mean, I want you to be honest.”
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